I have been working hard on my spirituality lately, and I would like to share some of my recent epiphanies. I have been trying for quite some time to lose enough ego to turn my life over to my higher power, God to me, as I understand Him/Her, and I have been making decent strides in that direction. And it feels just f-in great! Not to have to worry about so much stuff is a big plus, I still struggle with this one around bill time, when cops pull up behind me, and with my children. And those are three big ones. Well, maybe not the cop thingie(smiling), I have been reaping the benefits of the hard work.
My relationships with my daughters are blossoming into something beautiful. As I said, not worrying about the small stuff is a big one, it has reduced my stress level, and my blood pressure has dropped back down to normal. I was blessed to survive an accident where my head struck so hard that I tore a hole in the macula in my eye. (it is too close to the optic nerve to laser.) And when my blood pressure gets high, it bleeds into my eye, and I have a little blind spot. I have my own high blood pressure gauge! My blood pressure is normally120/80 or less 110/68 was my latest reading, and my resting heart rate is in the fifties, not bad for a sixty-two-year-old man who has lived life to the max.
I finally had an out of body experience when I was not dead, and that feels awesome! I am not sure where it is leading me, but I think I am with a group of people on our way to Tibet or some other holy place. We are on a thin trail along a mountainside, and it is a very long way to the bottom. I have done this with no help from a master. I am still looking for one who fits the bill. I am planning a trip to India to try and find my master there. In the meantime, I am doing pretty well on my own, but everyone could use a little help now and then. I have a friend named Michael, who is a super artist whom I discuss things with now and then, and this helps a lot.
I have been practicing “doing nothing” and accomplishing much. Just sitting and meditating and letting my beautiful mind go. I have apologized to the final person on my list of people I had harmed. And this had a calming effect on me, and it was not long after that that I made my first Astral projection without dying, I have died twice and had two near-death experiences. I have written about them before, but let us say they were both so f-ing cool, once I was in heaven and once in hell. I have seen both sides of the thing, and it changed me for the better. I know your last thoughts are essential as to where you end up. It is the reason I try to operate from a position of love, so my final thoughts will be of love, and the next time I die, I will be as ready with my feelings of love as I can. Love and forgiveness are paramount when you leave this plane of existence. I know this to be true for me. We all are on a different path, and that is way cool, so what works for me may not work for you, you will have to experience these things for yourself, and not to worry, you will.
Energy once created can never be destroyed; it just changes form, so the twenty-seven grams that leave the body upon death are the weight of your soul. It has mass, so it can be measured if not understood by science yet. I can see spirituality and science moving closer and closer to each other until they will meet, some say it has already happened, but I think they have a ways to go yet. It will happen, though. And I, for one, cannot wait! I am a lover of science and a lover of spirituality, and to see them walking together hand in hand will be the grandest of epiphanies.
Speaking of epiphanies, I have had my share, and they keep on coming! During my astral projection the other day, and I saw my skin begin to split at my head and start to slide down my body until I can step out of it, which I have. And now, I am getting used to my new skin, and it feels super! It is a bit loose yet, but I need a little extra room for my new growth, which is coming along. It is now that I need a little patience to give myself the time necessary for this new growth to take place, so I am meditating my tush off. This new skin feels terrific, and I am looking forward to the original me that comes out of this. I know I will love him. It feels good to say, “I love you, Michael Smith.” I haven’t always been able to say that.
I sometimes say that I have crammed in about three lifetimes worth of adventure into this body, and this gives me plenty of inspiration to write. Which I desperately need now. I am suffering through the worst bout of writers’ block I have ever had. Instead of pumping this piece out in a short minute, it has taken me several tries over three days to write this one. So, I keep plugging away until it breaks loose, it always does. But I believe I know the reason for this bout of writers’ block; it is my new skin and all of this growth. I feel confident that when this bout is over, I will be productive once again! Well, I am closing in on the magic one thousand word count, and it is time to bring this session to an end. If no one has told you, “I love you,” today, consider it done! Until next time…
My Two Cents 